The great thing in this world is not so much where we are, but in what direction we are moving.
–A couple weeks before my last Body Building competition in 2009, I weighed 100 lbs with a body fat ~11%. I was hungry and exhausted from extreme dieting for over 16 weeks. My entire life revolved around insanely meticulous calorie and nutrient counting and timing. I spent HOURS every week preparing, carefully weighing and packing each meal, and was (many would say) obsessive about eating the exact calculated ratio of proteins, carbohydrates and fats at precisely the right time of day. As my weekly caloric intake decreased, so did
my energy and I had less to put into my training or more importantly … to my family, friends and work.
—Today, I weigh 115 lbs and maintain a body fat of ~16%. Eating healthy is still a top priority in my life. I do not allow my diet to control me, although I am quite strict and careful about what I put into my body. .. but it is a process that still requires self control and discipline. And YES, I still carry my cooler with me almost everywhere I go… (Some habits never die!) These days however, I enjoy a variety of foods, and feel freedom to experiment with new recipes and ingredients without depriving my body of the nutrients it needs… or worrying that I may eat too many carbs or not enough protein at any given meal. I go to restaurants, and cook-outs and cocktail parties again.
After each body building season, I was nervous about gaining too much weight….I liked looking lean and muscular. But what I learned was this: All this new energy allowed me to focus more intensely on my lifting. … AND I quickly found out:
More Energy = More Intense workouts = EVEN MORE MUSCLE
Yes, I know, this is NOT rocket science. But initially I was so worried about that damn scale. Just like SO MANY of us. Why do we so obsess over the scale? What exactly is “too much weight” … We need to stop focusing on the scale but on our own unique body composition. Today, I weigh more than I have in years, but I wear exactly the same size clothes, though I have stronger, more athletic physique. My body fat percentage is in the excellent range for someone who is almost 50 years old. My energy and my disposition are better than ever… I feel (and look) healthier than I have in a long time. (Most days) I am not obsessed by the mirror, or the scale. And as I get stronger and continue to build more muscle…. I continue to burn unwanted body fat.
So now I look back on the last year or two with an entirely different perspective. Body building gave me purpose and a goal and provided a direction and an accountability I needed in
my life. It is a part of me but it doesn’t define me anymore. I’m not saying that I am done body building; I honestly don’t know. The competition circuit is amazing fun and has given me the privilege to befriend some really spectacular people. I have great respect for the athletes and the sport. I appreciate how difficult the journey to the stage is. So, it’s not so much that I have fallen out of love with bodybuilding but I’ve got a new itch. I have fallen in love again… with power lifting. The dark side, as some of my new lifting friends joke. I am a student again and I love all of it –from the scraped up shins to my overly callused hands. You not only have to have physical strength, you have to be tough to be a power lifter. There is no place for fear. You have to overcome your fears and your weaknesses. You have to not be afraid to fail or afraid of pain because there will be many failed attempts and a lot of pain. So here I go again pushing to my very limits, taking on new challenges, not only in body, but also in mind and spirit. I’m on a journey again. I am chasing numbers again, but this time around, the numbers I chase have nothing to do with counting carbs. All I know is that while on this journey I’m determined to become the best lifter I can be…
Yes, I’ve fallen to the dark side. And I’m all in. Some may even say I’m obsessed.
“The Iron never lies to you. You can walk outside and listen to all kinds of talk, get told that you’re a god or a total bastard. The Iron will always kick you the real deal. The Iron is the great reference point, the all-knowing perspective giver. Always there like a beacon in the pitch black. I have found the Iron to be my greatest friend. It never freaks out on me, never runs. Friends may come and go. But two hundred pounds is always two hundred pounds.”
JOSH AND ANGELA GIVE PRIVATE THANKSGIVING CONCERT!
This video clip is of Josh on Alto Sax, accompanied by Angela on piano. We were privileged to have had our own private concert in our home on Thanksgiving Day this year. The “concert” was sweet… Almost as sweet as Rick’s chocolate on chocolate mega cake!
It was a great day… and the music made it even more memorable. This selection is a one that Josh has been preparing to perform for the jury for his final exam in December. John and I are proud of Josh and his accomplishments. ENJOY THE SHOW !